Every so often, when this new abnormal becomes unbearable,
I feel the urge to do something familiar, something known, something that used to provide pleasure,
and I head out with my husband or a friend into the mild, sunny day to have scones and tea in a country coffee shop.
I try to emulate past behaviours by revisiting old haunts and travelling familiar roads
yet the enjoyment evaporates with every mask I see walking along the road,
with every ‘no mask, no entry’ sign,
with the hesitance of strangers to even engage in conversation with someone they do not know,
the sun loses its warmth,
the air becomes thick and unbreathable when I see a child behind a mask,
and the scenic valley only evokes sadness when the comparison between the beauty around us and the evil committed against humanity becomes a stark reminder of the oppression imposed on us,
hope dissolves when I think of my 25-year old son who has his life ahead of him,
under what conditions????? under who’s rule????? to what end?????
The vaccination is a line I will not cross, I have lived, for that I’m grateful,
our children have not!
The unfairness of this all, this dehumanising of humankind,
the subjugation of having to wear a mask that must be endured,
the shutting down of societies ways, relinquishing human contact,
the removal of freedom of movement, freedom of thought, freedom of speech, every freedom you can think of!!!!
tears me up inside, because the tunnel is so, so very dark,
resistance is meagre, the fight ahead a vital one, one I hope will come,
because I would rather go out fighting than become a slave to a bunch of delusional egomaniacs,
who believe themselves elevated above the rest of humanity and governments,
who are themselves slaves to the $ and to power,
their minds tainted with insanity,
who feel they have the right to mould this plane to their specifications,
who believe themselves to be gods.
No, my sadness is inherent, as is my fighting spirit,
and I pray for courage for the day which will surely come
when I will stand face to face with evil,
may I be bold enough to speak my truth,
brave enough to stand by my belief
and strong enough to do what is necessary.