My heart embraces everything you have sent reeling though me
and my soul sings a song the waking mind cannot comprehend,
which draws me back into myself, where I am silent, empty.
So I look for solace in the shadows of the night
where I can console my breaking self in the forest
that swallows the howls of the wolf streaking through the darkness,
whilst being fed by the light of the silver rays of the full moon,
awakening the wild, wild ways that come naturally and uninhibited,
even as I try to outrun your voice, your words
echoing from the distance, speaking to those parts of you
still alive in me, that keep pulling me back, that keep calling me.
Today I am strong, today I see your falsehoods, your devious ways
cloaked in gilded chains, the desolation of a future with you,
I hear the lies I tell myself to fill the longing, the emptiness,
that takes me to when you ruled, my world, my reason, me.
There is no going back, there is nothing to go back to,
limbo is a permanence, the once most uncomfortable space
now less so, no longer as threatening, no longer impossible.
I’m finding my way, slowly, day by day, this solitude a balm,
allow flow, through me and going along, not yesterday, not tomorrow,
only now, not an easy place to be, short-lived and already gone,
but so peaceful, so calm, so trouble-fee, so alive, so beautiful, so real,
and this is where I wish to be, to stay, always….