I do not want to live in fear
anymore, I do not want ‘what if’, ‘in case’ or ‘might’, I want to face each day
with a clear conscious, I want to look forward to unravelling the hours without
a thought or a worry, pure joy is what I want.
I do not want to live with guilt
anymore, I want to look at and discard every horror and nightmare, I want to
accept people and words at face value, I want to experience the day unhampered,
footsteps light without the weight not mine to bear, and forgiven!, every transgression,
wrong doing and betrayal, from myself, is what I seek.
And no!, too much has been lost in
history, a simple recipe or the formula to wonder, knowledge vanished, secrets
gone to the grave. Do not believe ‘all will be revealed in the end’, it induces
the fear to keep you caged, obedient and transparent, I will live for myself,
by my belief, by my heart.