Emotions

 

 I can feel colours, every colour of the rainbow,

I can feel music, pulsing through my veins,

the joy behind the smiles I can see,

the wonder in a little one’s big bright eyes,

the delight of frolicking pups chasing the shadow of a bird,

the pure true awe of the majestic mountains who have my back,

the raw power of the crashing waves rushing in my direction,

just as I crash at times, so hard the impact leaves me without breath,

slams me hard into my seat, keeping me there, pushing me down,

paralysed, without a hint of where to from here,

and even as I curl away to shield my self

with tears of pain, helplessness, pointlessness,

I can and will accept this as long as beauty too, endures.

 

 

Dream a dream

 

If you could dream a dream within this dream

would you dream yourself young, wild and free

of inhibitions, rules, constraints, reticence,

with a solid faith alive and knowing what is right,

what is wrong, what to follow, what to let go,

free-flowing on exuberance, love and laughter,

dancing to the song sung by your lovers lips

over the flames of the fire burning high,

under stars celebrating the return of goodness

to this plane, freedom and peace reigning supreme,

without leaders, without laws, with respect, with understanding,

so that I may lay claim to the other life that was destined for me.

 

 

Not my Friday night

 

 There’s a rhythm pulsing in my soul

I just can’t quite find the beat

it's alluring, I get lost in it some times

awaken as if from a dream

and it leaves light behind

light and a yearning for… for…

for this nightmare to end

for this battle to start

because this hovering in limbo

is threatening my sanity

tolerance has worn dangerously thin

there is no easy way out of this

no short-cut, no avoiding it

it’s the moments you hear young beautiful people

talking about having ‘done their duty’ and done the double

that sadness overwhelms so intensely tears flow

and it feels like hope is being sucked right out of my lungs

and I am suffocating from this helplessness,

this crippling powerlessness, to divert the end

that is sure to follow……