but being able to sit in the sunshine,
the music from the Sunday market
temporarily overriding the motion of the waves,
may I stay in this movement,
in this flow of nature,
without obstruction, without resistance,
at peace, at rest, with the knowing
this is the way to living.
yet the tears fall as
rain on this plane,
stifling my breath,
the pain and suffering
a blow to my stomach,
I double over from the
force,
and I wish I could
extend my arms,
wrap them around every
pain, every tear, every loss,
hold you ‘til the
tears run dry and the pain subsides,
hold you until you can
lift your head and gaze at the dawn,
hold you until your being
is filled with the light of your wakened spirit,
then gently let you go
as you jump free from the restraints of darkness,
beings so light you float
above the ground on legs as young as a gazelle,
eyes as bright as a child’s
and a heart open and filled with love.
There is so much I wish to say
but I can’t find the words
for the feelings I feel,
for the pictures in my head,
for an inexplicable clarity I have of things
which burdened, perplexed me
for such a long time,
my mind and my heart is sparkling
with visions and ideas,
there’s a newfound peace and joy inside
bursting free that may find me laughing out loud
when I walk barefoot across the lawn in the sunshine.
I see pictures behind pictures,
I hear sounds within sounds,
I see hues I have not seen before,
taste tastes I have not savoured before.
Make no mistake, I still feel stuck
in this old world,
my new world is not yet ready,
not yet mine to live in,
but this dysfunctional mess we are all finding ourselves in,
will not be for very much longer,
the edges are rough, the story is fraying,
the lie no longer has pillars to hold it up,
and while the old sinks and disintegrates,
my dawn, filled with love and light,
is growing brighter with every passing moment.
I understand my purpose,
I have love in my heart
and a warrior in my soul,
soon we will all be together,
my family, my tribe.
