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You say I affect
those around me, you say I make you nervous, anxious.
Nervous. Anxious.
Is why I was
medicated and lost my young memories
Is how I was
taught to believe my natural instincts to be unacceptable, unreliable
This I accepted without
question, chasing numb above feeling
in a haze of
escape lasting long after they stopped handing me those little red pills,
but I eventually removed
myself from the play, changed the backdrop and the script,
finally listened
to the voices in my head…
Tell me, have you
felt my eyes burn through you when you’re in my sight,
seeing past what
you present, past the lines you’re repeating,
have you felt the
air around you ignite, that tingling on your skin?
with an excitement,
pleasure, passion you can’t ignore,
I don’t speak many
words, but you know the one’s I speak are true,
you know you are
safe, accepted as you are before me now,
how you got here…….
I have fallen as often as you……
When I feel, I
feel deeply, intensely, absorbing my surroundings, you,
you are meant to
feel my presence.
Sometimes I
disturb you, make you nervous, anxious,
sometimes I sweep
you up with my energy, inflame,
sometime I take
you high enough for you to see over the horizon,
and sometimes, with
me, you can drown…
