It's time to go home...

The road stretches out, endlessly, a golden mile too far,

that the thought of moving forward

is as appealing as yesterday’s feast,

congealed and encrusted in the sink,

the remains now lying rotten at the pit of your stomach

in the breaking dawn.

For your soul is just too scarred

to see the beauty of the mountain range hovering on the horizon,

and the wounds too raw to appreciate

the fresh sea air drifting just past their peak.

And by a force not your own,

you slow down, come to a halt

at the roadside at the edge of tall waving grass.

You open the door,

not bothering to close it behind you,

and start walking into the wilderness.

Slowly, tentatively at first,

then your steps start to quicken.

Faster and faster.

Each stride longer than the last

as you try to outrun

all the thoughts whirling in your head,

to leave behind the memories,

the words that still echo in your ear,

the touch of the hand that's still warm on your back,

and the tears that flowed freely down your cheeks,

as recently as today.

And you come to halt at the furiously flowing river.

You stare at the torrent and the angry rushing water,

and you wonder if you'll take that step,

into the maelstrom of oblivion.

To bring an end to the infinite torture your mind has subjected you to,

induced by the realisation

that that which you’ve lived

was the design of another’s creation,

and you were just along for the ride,

while they operated the controls.

You were but a puppet

at the hands of the master of manipulation and deception,

which you were too naïve,

too gullible,

too trusting

to see.

And the thought of redeeming their soul

and to carry on is just too much to bear,

too much to put behind,

so you take that step into the yielding, ice-cold mud

as the wind tears at your hair

and the skies cry with you

and you wait for the current

to lay claim to your soul,

as you welcome the coming silence.

It’s time to go home…

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