I am the darkness

It is cold and unpleasant, another day without sunshine,

my mind a hamster wheel spinning out of control,

I can no longer fool myself into believing everything will be alright

when I can see pieces flying off into shadowed tomorrows,

building a cloud, a dark storm cloud I have no way of avoiding,

with no protection, no defences, no strength left to fight,

I have exhausted every mind trick, every belief, every healer known to me,

yet the circle keeps coming around and points its dirty finger in my face,

‘You are mine, I have claimed you, I will not relinquish my control,
no matter what route you choose, you won’t find relief,
I’m inherent in your being, I’m the space surrounding spaces,
what makes you think you have what it takes to remove me
when I am the darkness and I am you.’