Tuesday, April 17, 2018

I am angry




picture source: https://za.pinterest.com/pin/375909900132216550/



 ......at myself, for not saying what I think, what I feel, what I know, for censoring everything I do to please others, for being what society wants me to be, for the injustices in the world, the labels, the seekers of labels, the ignorant, I am angry at the world for creating all these broken people, I am angry for feeling broken myself, I am angry for all my stupid deeds, and I am tired of being tired, tired of feeling purposeless, aimless wandering through each day, I am angry at being judged, at every doubt I feed myself, for every time I step back instead of smashing through the barrier of control imposed by other people, I’m angry at the passage of time, at my traitorous heart, my sinful flesh, I am angry for accepting every hurt along the way which brought me to this point, I am angry ‘cause you do not even try to listen to me, that you dispel harmony and pleasure with criticism, doubt, ignorance and your own fears, I have something to offer, I have something to contribute, I am good enough, I am worthy of respect and love, and if you don’t trust me, that is fine, trust is earned after all, not given.


7 comments:

  1. There is a lot to be angry at these days if we can't find our peace.

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  2. Awesome, awesome read, friend Shadow ... prolly the best of yours ever ... and I fully agree ... U nose what? ... smiles ... I am 62 now, and the older I get, the more self assured I become in what I think and what I do ... and I like it ... smiles ... Thank you for writing this ... Love you, cat.

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  3. Good to let 'anger out' in a creative way ~ great photo ~ You are most worthy ~ sending lots of distant reiki healing hugs,

    Namaste,
    A ShutterBug Explores,
    aka (A Creative Harbor)

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  4. Anger is a real emotion and sometimes one needs to vent. Try and turn the anger into positive energy and release yourself from what holds your soul down.

    Wishing you peace and calm...

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  5. ...and this anger pray tell dear friend what good has it done you? Being angry at the construct of this culture of humanity never changes it, it changes you. I spent many decades angry as a motherfucker at everything, sometimes it was fun to have so much anger. I pushed me to places I never knew, gave me freedom to speak in place and out of turn.

    I am older now, my anger is well subsumed by my desire for solitude. I may not be as productive as I once was but today I have no reason to be angry at I or any other. Gray hair has a way of taking the rage away.

    Be Well and angry while you're young yet my love is yours.

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